I had no lesson plans today. Good thing this blog is private! Hopefully my boss will never discover this post :) I had so many other things to do that I just didn't have time to do lesson plans today so I just sort of flew by the seat of my pants as the saying goes.
And it was a great day. I can get away with not doing lesson plans once or twice in a two or three week period and still be alright. If I try to do it more than that I notice a real lack of focus in my classes and behavior problems increase. But thankfully today was not one of those days.
I had fun today. I really just enjoyed the day being with my students. And I felt a really great love for them. It was strange. I have not really felt that sort of overwhelming love for my students in a while. I felt it quite often last year, but it has just not come as much this year. I attribute that to the fact that I am pregnant and completely preoccupied with other things. But today was a day where I just loved my students. And we had a wonderful day together. It was fun. We just did fun things together.
Sometimes life is like that. You need to abandon your plans (or in my case not have any) and just enjoy life for a while and have fun. You can't live like that, but every now and then it is healthy and good.
I just wanted to document a day on my blog where I was completely loving my students instead of being frustrated and frazzled by them. I will sure miss them when they go.
Friday, February 10, 2012
Friday, February 3, 2012
No Matter What
I have had a good week no matter what happens today. My last couple of Fridays have been incredibly hard days with my students and they have left me with a bad taste in my mouth as I go into my weekend. But today is not going to be that way. Because before I go to to work (i.e. right now, at 6:00 AM) I am going to remind myself what a good week it has been.
My students have all but a few pages of their music learned and my concert isn't for six weeks.
My All-County students are learning their music fast and they are well behaved and dedicated. AND I am taking 12 boys this year!!! (Compared to only 3 last year).
During Silent Time for Individual Listening Logs (STILL) my students were actually quite interested in the music. (I make them study a classical composer every month and listen to a piece of his music every Thursday).
I had only one real discipline problem and the parent totally backed me up. I want to be a parent like that.
My principal is back at work and things just seem to go so much more smoothly when he is in charge! (He was out for over two weeks because he got a really bad knee injury and had to have surgery).
My classroom was clean at the end of every single workday.
I have just felt good about this week! My kids are really coming along in their music and sight reading. So no matter what happens today, it has been a good week and nothing can take that away from me!
My students have all but a few pages of their music learned and my concert isn't for six weeks.
My All-County students are learning their music fast and they are well behaved and dedicated. AND I am taking 12 boys this year!!! (Compared to only 3 last year).
During Silent Time for Individual Listening Logs (STILL) my students were actually quite interested in the music. (I make them study a classical composer every month and listen to a piece of his music every Thursday).
I had only one real discipline problem and the parent totally backed me up. I want to be a parent like that.
My principal is back at work and things just seem to go so much more smoothly when he is in charge! (He was out for over two weeks because he got a really bad knee injury and had to have surgery).
My classroom was clean at the end of every single workday.
I have just felt good about this week! My kids are really coming along in their music and sight reading. So no matter what happens today, it has been a good week and nothing can take that away from me!
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Nesting?
I was just having this conversation the other day with my mom. I basically said, "Mom, I have heard about this thing called 'nesting' but I am so tired and exhausted from work every single day that I don't know if I will ever feel it."
What is nesting exactly?
Well, if it is this urge to have everything perfectly ready when the baby comes then I think maybe I was feeling it just a little bit yesterday. I desperately wanted to get his room closer to ready. We have three bedrooms in our house. One we were using as an office/library and the other was full of storage and junk. About two weeks ago we cleaned out the junk/storage room and starting moving all the stuff in the office/library over into that room. We never finished. Well, yesterday we finally moved over the last bookshelf, desk, and pile of blankets. All that is left in the old library is a little clean up and then it will be ready for yesterday's big purchases. Moving the crib from the wish list to the order basket was surreal. I know that sounds dramatic, but I am just so excited. When the time came to pay, I was so nervous and excited to push the "order" button on Amazon I thought I would squeal. Okay. I did squeal. Just a little bit :)
Purchase #1:
I also ordered a mattress pad, but there is nothing too exciting about a picture of that. They were all on this killer sale on Amazon AND I am so excited to get my baby's room ready I can hardly stand it. The stroller will not be in the room, obviously, but Mark was really excited about it. We did all the shopping and deciding together.
Is all that that nesting?
What is nesting exactly?
Well, if it is this urge to have everything perfectly ready when the baby comes then I think maybe I was feeling it just a little bit yesterday. I desperately wanted to get his room closer to ready. We have three bedrooms in our house. One we were using as an office/library and the other was full of storage and junk. About two weeks ago we cleaned out the junk/storage room and starting moving all the stuff in the office/library over into that room. We never finished. Well, yesterday we finally moved over the last bookshelf, desk, and pile of blankets. All that is left in the old library is a little clean up and then it will be ready for yesterday's big purchases. Moving the crib from the wish list to the order basket was surreal. I know that sounds dramatic, but I am just so excited. When the time came to pay, I was so nervous and excited to push the "order" button on Amazon I thought I would squeal. Okay. I did squeal. Just a little bit :)
Purchase #1:
Purchase #2:
Purchase #3:
I also ordered a mattress pad, but there is nothing too exciting about a picture of that. They were all on this killer sale on Amazon AND I am so excited to get my baby's room ready I can hardly stand it. The stroller will not be in the room, obviously, but Mark was really excited about it. We did all the shopping and deciding together.
Is all that that nesting?
Friday, January 27, 2012
Moving Around
I just have to say how much I love to just sit in our small armchair in our living room with my feet propped up watching my son's movements across my stomach. He is big enough now that pretty much every movement is visible. He is also big enough that I can tell where he (in the middle, on the left, on the right, etc...) Sometimes right up at the top I can feel a little head or maybe a little bottom as this hard little knot while everything else around it is pretty soft. Sometimes when I do that he will move out of the way. He already has personality :)
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Being Diabetic
I don't like being diabetic. I don't like it one bit. And it is only getting more difficult as my pregnancy progresses. In the beginning it was fairly easy to control my blood sugar. But gestational diabetes gets increasingly worse and more difficult to control the further your pregnancy progresses. I am SO GLAD my pregnancy is progressing. There is no better place in the world for my son right now than where he is. HOWEVER. That being said, I am tired of watching everything I put into my mouth. I am especially tired because these days no matter what I eat or how much I exercise I just cannot keep my blood sugar quite where it needs to be. So. My doctor will probably put me on insulin soon (if I had to guess).
I am hungry. Often.
And I have only gained 4 pounds in 6 1/2 months of pregnancy. That is pretty much just my baby, the placenta, and some amniotic fluid.
In fact, I have lost weight in my thighs, behind, and face.
But that doesn't make me happy. It makes me worried. It makes me worried that I am not eating enough and that I am having to use energy from other places to grow my baby and stay healthy myself. I guess they haven't found ketones in my urine (sorry, TMI) at the doctors office so I shouldn't be too worried.
But I am. I am worried. And frustrated. And discouraged. And I feel guilty for even having diabetes. Which I know is completely irrational because I didn't do anything to get it. I wasn't overweight. I wasn't eating poorly. I just got it. Probably because insulin is a hormone and all my other hormones are messed up anyways.
I don't mean to complain. I know this is a huge blessing. And really it is the only hard part about pregnancy for me. I wasn't sick and I am not that tired. But I am sick and tired of worrying about my blood sugar and how it is affecting my baby.
I guess I just feel guilty. I feel like if my blood sugar gets too high then I am a bad mother. But I am hungry. And I don't want to starve my baby either. So what makes me a worse mother? Starving myself to keep my numbers low or having high blood sugar? Okay. Starving is a bit strong. But I do have an increased appetite as of late but I do not have any wiggle room in my diet to eat any more than I already am and when I do my blood sugar goes up.
I guess I will just wait until my appointment next week and talk to my doctor about it. In the mean time I think I will probably call my dietician. Hopefully she can help me eat enough without spiking my blood sugar.
Because I love my son, but I am tired of being hungry.
I am hungry. Often.
And I have only gained 4 pounds in 6 1/2 months of pregnancy. That is pretty much just my baby, the placenta, and some amniotic fluid.
In fact, I have lost weight in my thighs, behind, and face.
But that doesn't make me happy. It makes me worried. It makes me worried that I am not eating enough and that I am having to use energy from other places to grow my baby and stay healthy myself. I guess they haven't found ketones in my urine (sorry, TMI) at the doctors office so I shouldn't be too worried.
But I am. I am worried. And frustrated. And discouraged. And I feel guilty for even having diabetes. Which I know is completely irrational because I didn't do anything to get it. I wasn't overweight. I wasn't eating poorly. I just got it. Probably because insulin is a hormone and all my other hormones are messed up anyways.
I don't mean to complain. I know this is a huge blessing. And really it is the only hard part about pregnancy for me. I wasn't sick and I am not that tired. But I am sick and tired of worrying about my blood sugar and how it is affecting my baby.
I guess I just feel guilty. I feel like if my blood sugar gets too high then I am a bad mother. But I am hungry. And I don't want to starve my baby either. So what makes me a worse mother? Starving myself to keep my numbers low or having high blood sugar? Okay. Starving is a bit strong. But I do have an increased appetite as of late but I do not have any wiggle room in my diet to eat any more than I already am and when I do my blood sugar goes up.
I guess I will just wait until my appointment next week and talk to my doctor about it. In the mean time I think I will probably call my dietician. Hopefully she can help me eat enough without spiking my blood sugar.
Because I love my son, but I am tired of being hungry.
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Happy Birthday To Me
Today is my birthday. It is usually my very favorite day of the entire year. In years past I have been showered with love and attention from my husband and my family and friends. Now I live thousands of miles away from family, my husband is in medical school, and I have only a few close friends here who also have husbands in medical school.
That is code for: This hasn't been my favorite day of the entire year.
In fact, it is probably one of the loneliest birthdays I have had.
To be fair, over 40 people took the time to wish me a happy birthday on facebook. And the day is not over! As silly as it sounds it meant so much to me. I probably checked facebook every couple of hours today just to see who had wished me a happy day. And my spirits were lifted with every name that was added to that list. People can criticize facebook all they want for not being "real" friendships, but when you are isolated and lonely and far away it is nice to feel connected to the world and today I was immensely grateful for facebook and all the kind friends who wished me a happy day.
I also got phone calls from my mom and siblings, my in-laws, and my
That is code for: This hasn't been my favorite day of the entire year.
In fact, it is probably one of the loneliest birthdays I have had.
To be fair, over 40 people took the time to wish me a happy birthday on facebook. And the day is not over! As silly as it sounds it meant so much to me. I probably checked facebook every couple of hours today just to see who had wished me a happy day. And my spirits were lifted with every name that was added to that list. People can criticize facebook all they want for not being "real" friendships, but when you are isolated and lonely and far away it is nice to feel connected to the world and today I was immensely grateful for facebook and all the kind friends who wished me a happy day.
I also got phone calls from my mom and siblings, my in-laws, and my
Friday, January 13, 2012
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