Not Knowing

My brother-in-law is getting married. And I am sad. I am lonely for my sister. I am afraid I will not be able to have a relationship with my nieces. I am scared things will work out. I am scared things won't work out. I am scared that once he gets married neither he nor his new wife will not want anything to do with us. I am as intimidated by her as she probably is by me. I wish I could raise my nieces because they are all that is left of my sister. I am angry. I am happy for my brother-in-law too. I am happy he has found a new companion. He needs a good woman to help him raise my nieces.